tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63313458228808912642024-02-08T02:51:57.206-08:00ongweiwenongweiwenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01065324301367238606noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6331345822880891264.post-49897975356610861922012-11-13T06:47:00.000-08:002012-11-13T06:47:22.093-08:00Are we weak and heavy-laden?The trouble with writing is always how to begin.<br />
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Because like all who are processing something in mind to share, having too much in mind, or nothing at all; is always the case.<br />
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As to what made me decide to re-open this age, I can't pinpoint specifically. But I attribute it to a very intense and mixed feeling I've constantly been experiencing.<br />
I struggle with myself more than anything else. Though I find peace though God and his people sometimes, I constantly battle my mind, and the more I struggle, the more I find myself slipping.<br />
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I've been told, and heard many times over, God will provide.<br />
I've encountered many times where He has, so much more than he should. I've counted my blessings, and lost track many times over.<br />
But something about my greedy self always feels that I'm never getting what I want.<br />
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It is getting difficult to serve when my mind is always burdened, and my heart is always heavy.<br />
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Maybe I can continue to write when my mind isn't so cluttered. For now, I need Your help more than ever.ongweiwenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01065324301367238606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6331345822880891264.post-9146723162258607122012-03-21T12:06:00.004-07:002012-11-13T06:20:08.169-08:00Would you look at that<div>
<span style="font-size: 100%;">I think not being employed for close to 6 months has really taken a hit on my confidence. </span></div>
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As low as it already was, I was being fed false hope of a job advancement opportunity as a CFS Generalist.</div>
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I was struggling with self presentation and self regulation as a Training Executive, and ended up falling off an intense and steep learning curve.</div>
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Even more so, the failed interviews, and the turning down of opportunities at the wrong time.</div>
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What can I say? I feel lost. Lost with the direction of my career. In terms of relationship. Even in terms of life, since societal stigma tells us how much life revolves around the formers.</div>
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But maybe it just hit me really hard, that I need to get off my ass. Again. Moping doesn't help. If anything, it makes things worse. An idle mind definitely is a form of masochism.</div>
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This is to serve as a reminder, that I am not going to let circumstances and past failures get to my head. I'm always told, God has a plan for all of us. To be honest, the more I stay in my current situation, the more difficulty I have in believing that. </div>
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Putting things in perspective, all these past failures should not be something that should deter me, but instead looked as an opportunity to discover more about myself. </div>
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Change of course occurs most frequently when I work myself off to the bone. It's so difficult to do it alone. Lord please grant me strength.</div>
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<span style="font-size: 100%;">Hmm... I haven't blogged in 2 years.</span></div>
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How do I reintroduce myself to this again? </div>
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ongweiwenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01065324301367238606noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6331345822880891264.post-83141475672424546852010-01-11T10:01:00.003-08:002010-01-11T10:01:52.965-08:002010<div style="text-align: center;">i hope somethings changing.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">i hope</div>ongweiwenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01065324301367238606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6331345822880891264.post-61065827277412274662009-09-08T11:02:00.000-07:002009-09-08T11:05:24.188-07:00I've written pages, upon pages......trying to rid you from my bones.<br /><br />sighongweiwenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01065324301367238606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6331345822880891264.post-86202649999841332552009-08-19T10:23:00.000-07:002009-08-25T13:11:25.739-07:00sighhh<div style="text-align: center;">I haven't blogged in ages.<br /><br />i have no right to say I'm lonely. or my holiday sucked.<br /><br />yes i am as confused as ever. and this feeling of ambiguity is... balls. BALLSSSSSS<br /><br />so many plans made for the holidays, before the holidays all failed.<br /><br />what i've come to expect out of this holidays have been a real let down.<br /><br />but it has always been this way i guess. what made me think it was gonna change?<br /><br /><br /></div>ongweiwenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01065324301367238606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6331345822880891264.post-28927166218878316962009-07-04T11:46:00.000-07:002009-07-04T12:25:54.673-07:001st entry=(ongweiwenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01065324301367238606noreply@blogger.com0